Monday, April 3, 2017

Chasing Hope

Chasing Hope

I've been many places in this life. On top of mountains, down under in caves. All of these things I've done to be brave... to conquer my fears. I left changed. But nothing has changed me more than walking in shoes I never imagined walking in. 

Hurt is defined as something that causes mental pain or distress to (a person or their feelings). We all hurt, and we all hurt differently. The hurt that has been the hardest to bear is the hurt that numbs me. 

We sit and watch things happen to others and never imagine one day we'll walk in their shoes. We give our condolences, feel sympathetic. But we don't truly know the degree of hurt that they are feeling. We don't know what questions are going unanswered. We just don't know. Until it happens to us.

I never imagined I'd suffer great loss so soon in my life. I never imagined my Aunt would pass at just 45 years old and not even two months later her baby boy would be gone at the age of 26. These are things that you just don't consider. But they can become your reality in the blink of an eye.

In the last month I've asked myself, "How are you going to cope? How are you going to get through this?" Everyday I tell myself, "I don't know but you will." 

All I know at this point in my life is that I can not lie down and give up on life. I am hurt but I can't die with them. They have to keep living through me. I have to be okay because that's what they'd want for me. 

So, I'm chasing hope. I'm hopeful that all of my hurt will be meaningful one day. I'm hopeful that all of this is to make me stronger, for me to be a better person. 

I'm hopeful because all of our stories are already written.. the only ones caught off guard were the people that loved them, God already knew. And because he already knew he already made it so that we'd get through this. So, I'll keep chasing hope.. until we meet again! 




  1. Love it... tears..Im chasing hope with you. This is you stay strong it can't rain forever.

  2. My condolenses to you and your family!! Beautifully written


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